It’s always greener on the other side. Friends are envy of me cause they think I have the lifestyle of a tai-tai. If any of my girlfriends were in my shoes they would know that it ain’t true. Who could possibly wanna trade position with me when I am in a country not even with a handful of friends around me?
Yes, I do have a husband who loves me unconditionally..but the times we share together are lesser compared to the times I spend mostly by myself. I am telling you, it’s not an easy phase to overcome at all.
I am trying to open up. Getting to know the people who lives around my area. I wonder at times, am I being a pest in their lives? I guess all I wanted was to seek some comfort and a sense of belonging.
Memories of mine often do flashbacks.. “Topic: The importance of having friends”. Friends who took care of me, wild nights that gave hangovers, chit chats during coffee breaks, shopping spree during sale, vacation vacation vacation, fine dining once a week and laughter that was never ending.
It’s different now. All I’m grasping on to are just memories from the corners of my mind…
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i understand now
well, understanding is one thing.
being in the picture is different.
im sure things will be fine soon specially when i have a positive outlook in my future. matter of a time.